But i left my heart in Canada *cries* W/we have so much to be thankful for and yet...when the time comes that W/we part company, even though O/our love is stronger and O/our communication is tight, the yearning and longing begins to pull at U/us - i guess i can only speak for myself actually...a part of me is missing...my chest hurts, my eyes want to cry and yet, I am not sad...i am happy. Happy that i have the love of my life, who loves me like i never thought i could be loved, who gives me the freedom to explore myself and find balance in all aspects of my existence. The 1st week after a long visit is so hard...a touch of depression from someone who does not really get depressed sets in...i am numb and wish i was in His arms right now. If home is where the heart is, then i am so far from home...
Now: on to some things W/we did *smiles with her eyes* - W/we had a couple of really awesome sessions in His dungeon (when the kids weren't home of course *giggle*). He tried some new toys on me: Violent Wand (yes, i know it's called the Violet Wand). A glove that had buzzing sensors on the fingertips, a glove that had metal hook-ish claws, a new whip (my first time being whipped)...it left me feeling like whipped cream - WUWU!! W/we really went to town and had a blast as Dom and sub. W/we went to His weekly slosh (i went there once the last time i visited Him) and it was awesome - after the slosh, W/we went to some D/s friends house and i got suspended by a suspension rope master - totally awesome!!!
The outfit, chosen by SirW was quite festive and fitting for the occasion! W/we had moments of tenderness as Man and woman and playful fun times as great friends. W/we went to dinner, drank beer at the pub, shopped 'til W/we dropped and so much more. 9 days of pure heaven and now the memories tug at me, making me miss Him and the times W/we spent together. Time always helps me through, but i just wanted to share my feelings. Being in a LDR works for O/our situations, but it does not mean i would not jump for joy if W/we could be together full time. I am a patient woman and am grateful for all W/we share in person and when W/we are together. It is more than i could ever have hoped for in a beautiful union of two souls in love.