Journal Found (JAN 27, 2011: the day W/we met)

Not sure if i mentioned this, but i kept a journal from the 1st day i met SirW, but it was handwritten and got lost along the way somewhere.  i knew one day it would be recovered, and that day is today!

JAN 27, 2011:
It's Thursday evening.  Feeling more alive than ever - more free to be who I was and destined to be, but only if I step outside my comfort zone, remove previous limitations & push myself to take chances.

For years now, I've wanted things I denied myself. I wanted a new & fresh beginning where I redefined my life, made goals & determinations.

I dusted off my dreams & started to move toward them.....

So, it's Thursday night & I decide I am going to drastically change my style.  I posted a pic of a hot young blond (as seen in the picture to the right -->) on Facebook and asked for opinions on cutting and coloring (my hair has been long and brown & conservative for decades) funky blond to look on the outside how I am feeling on the inside.

After a few responses, I noticed a friend of a friend click the "LIKE" button.



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BACK STORY:
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I have always been a strong person.  I work hard at maintaining all aspects of my life.  You might say I have control over myself & my environment, or at least say I'm in tune with it/them.

But recently, towards the end of my marriage, I realized I had very submissive tendencies.  I researched the Internet with the assistance of a friend who once lived the D/s lifestyle.  This person and I role-played a little, look at D/s porn sites and it really opened my mind to a lifestyle that appealed to me.

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BACK TO THURSDAY NIGHT:
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I decided to check out the person who checked "LIKE" and was pleasantly surprised to see a handsome gentleman.  Intrigued, I sent him a private message to let him know that pic was not me, but some hot blond & I could be her mother.  He said via reply on FB a few minutes later that he knew, but he look at my pics and found me attractive too *smiley face*

We sent private messages back and forth for about 2 hours!  Time seemed to have stopped!  He was so attentive and responsive & after cybering with 1/2 dozen or so young men (too young and immature), along with the one man that I was no longer interested in, this interaction with a confident, yet sensitive adult was sooooo refreshing! *smiley face*
--kitten for Sir