Here Without You

kitten has always loved this song, but it has a deep and special meaning for B/both Sir and kitten...
Here are the lyrics:

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

And when the last one falls

When it's all said and done

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl its only you and me

The connection between Sir and kitten is so strong that it is sometimes torture to be so far away from Him.  Don't get me wrong - kitten is grateful for skype, but there are moments...intimate moments during O/our training sessions where i feel so vulnerable and just wish i could be in His arms, feeling His touch, His caress, the...Aftercare.  He does spend a lot of time [with me] before, during and after O/our training sessions, and texts me during the day when He can and the surprise phone calls always put a huge smile on kitten's face, but the pull to be in His presence is sometimes hard to deal with to be honest.

It has now been about 4 months since Sir and i began O/our D/s journey together.  He is always changing things up and therefore, W/we are always evolving.  It is evident that He takes time to plan my training and He uses creativity in keeping my mind expanding and my submissive core growing.  Whereas things are consistent, things are not predictable.  He is a breath of fresh air.  He is a cool drink of water on a hot summers day.  He satisfies my hunger for love and lust.  O/our relationship is highly enjoyable and satisfying, and yet...

Mornings like this morning, when there is silence, when only the sound of the birds singing outside, the wind that blows in the sky, the busy noises of technology humming around my apartment seem to get louder and louder as kitten reflects on her life and how she wishes...so many things...and all of it...starts with being in His presence.

However, the fact of the matter is: O/our relationship, both vanilla and non-vanilla is so powerful and rewarding, that kitten would rather suffer with the yearning, longing and the loneliness i feel at times than to be without Him. kitten cannot imagine a life without Sir...it is unimaginable!

Tonight, another skype dinner, but this time, kitten will be fully clothed....why, you wonder?  His children will be eating with U/us - this is sooo lovely, i can hardly wait!  i will not mention His children much in my blogs in order to keep this about Sir and kitten, but i will say that they are sweet, smart and very good kids that i care about very much!

All in all, when it comes right down to it, kitten has never been this happy with life in general, so i will march on with my head held high, proud to be His submissive, His woman, His kitten!

*smiles bright with her eyes*

kitten for Sir