kitten's journey

i was married in my early 20's and loved, but without passion, desire and lust, as these things never manifested from within me...

The marriage was one where i truly wanted to please his every need and lost myself along the way...

About 13 years later, and after his affair that broke my heart, i decided i would see if my marriage was worth saving.  6 years of contemplating divorce, struggling to be happy with myself, a person of complete mistrust, i decided to leave him, so we separated...

Almost immediately, i started to discover that i had feelings deep within me that wanted to emerge.  Feelings of desire, lust, longing yearning, urges and eventually submission...

i dabbled in some on line cyber chats, which were not as satisfying as i had hoped, as the ones that were interested in me were too young and immature.  i was not about to raise another man.  No!  This time, i wanted someone who was...well...a real man, someone who had a ton of experience, who knew how to treat a woman and who knew how to please...

And in return, i would give Him everything.  Absolutely everything - all that i had to offer: my body, my heart, my total devotion and love - and everything in between...

i am now divorced and in my mid-40's and met Sir in January 2011.  He has been witness to my growth as a woman and as a submissive.  He says he has seen me go from caterpillar to a full fledged butterfly and that's exactly how feel, spreading my wings and flying excitedly towards the unknown.

O/our relationship started and remains long distance due to how W/we met.  With my divorce being so new, that is not a bad thing, as it allows me some time to become who i have always known i was, but never allowed myself to be.

Sir visited His kitten on O/our 2 month anniversary of being together (via skype).  i was anxious to see if all W/we did over skype would really be as fulfilling in person.  The hope i carried in my heart, was that W/we'd be compatible and HOLY CRAP, W/we are (lol).

The blogs i write are based on my submissive journey with Sir, whom i have grown to love with every fiber of my being...

Love does not have to exist within the BDSM realm, but it does for U/us, along with Trust, Honesty and Respect (And Obedience on my part, of course *wink*).  W/we have a beautiful blend of Vanilla and Non-Vanilla and are enjoying every minute of this journey together.
 

Every morning i wake to a new sunrise, which provides a new opportunity to submit myself to Sir, to love Sir, to appreciate O/our world as it unfolds into the journey of a lifetime...

--kitten for Sir