i started living...

i started living when i started loving You...


i am sitting here, 2am and can't sleep.  i felt a head cold coming on all day.  i totally went downhill this evening and We did go to bed, but i woke up a while ago, took some meds, made some tea, took a hot steam shower and just started thinking about my life. 


i pulled up Facebook and then it popped into my head...the quote from C. S. Lewis - one of my favorite quotes actually, "You see we are like blocks of stone out of which the sculptor carves the forms of men. The blows of his chisel which hurt us so much with are what makes us perfect."  It's from Shadowlands, so i looked on Youtube to see if i could find a clip and i did...one of the lines was, "i started living when i started loving You" and i totally identified with it, so i thought i would document it, so here it is:


i started living when i started loving You...


A love like Ours is rare and hard to adequately describe, but there are moments when one hears a quote that comes close to how they feel.  The above quote (taken from the movie "Shadowlands") is truly how i feel about SirW...i really started living when i started loving Him.  Before Him, i merely existed.  i thought i was happy, then i found happiness with Him.


Don't get me wrong, no one is responsible for my happiness...no one can make another happy...happiness comes from within, but it is my time with Him that have been the happiest times of life.  i have lived an extraordinary life from the time i was born and it all lead me to Him, to Canada, to the life i am blessed to have at this moment.  i cherish it all.  i am fulfilled.


good night :)

9 !/2 Weeks

The night started off  with watching 9 1/2 Weeks, a movie i had not seen since the 80's and i don't remember it being THAT good - holy shite!  We stayed up later than We normally would to finish it and man, was i a frisky kitten from the beginning to the end of it, but typically when We get to bed as late as it was, We pretty much hit the sack and catch some zed's (remember, i am in Canada now)...

Up the stairs We climbed and into the washroom for my usual 'before-bed-bath' so i am always ready (just in case He decides to use His kitten), when He pops open the door and asks if i am going to take a bath...hmmm, i thought...He does not usually pop in and ask me this.  i said, "yes Master" and He said, "OK, because I am going to take a shower" and proceeded to close the door, when i said, "Oh, perhaps We could shower together?"  He agreed and came into the washroom, turned the water on, stripped naked (as did i) and got into the shower together...

In past showers together, We usually soap each other up and have sex in one way or another, but the mood was different this time...He told me to close my eyes, so i did.  We began to kiss feverishly - this turns Us both on so much - We really enjoy each other's mouths.  Then He took the soap and got the shower nozzle in His hands and began to toy with me a little.  He took His time as He washed my body playfully, getting me even further excited.  Eventually, i made my way to His hard cock and surrounding intimate areas with an animal-like fashion, i sucked, licked and used my hands to extract what i wanted: kitten's feeding, all with my eyes closed.  The sounds of His moaning turned me on even further...

When i succeeded with my intentions, i stood up, He grabbed my toothbrush and toothpaste and proceeded to brush my teeth - something He had never done before, but the mood, again was different.  This turned out to be quite fun and when We finished that, We kissed passionately again and by the time We were done with the shower, We were ready to continue Our sensual, sexual encounter in the bedroom.  To make a long story short, all His kitten's holes were used to perfection, multiple orgasms happened on both sides and We flopped down to drift off to sleep after looking deeply into each other's eyes in silence...words were not needed, for We knew words could not adequately describe the satisfaction of being so connected in every way, so We drifted off into a deep slumber :)

The little things

My typical week day usually starts with me getting up, arranging SirW's shaving accoutrements on the washroom counter, making coffee and bringing a cup back to His nightstand.  i wait for the alarm to go off, then i gently caress (little tickles, scratches and massages) His back and neck for a few minutes until He wakes up.  Then We go downstairs and He catches up on His social networks, etc. as i prepare lunch for Him (and Our son).  Eventually, they both leave (for work and school) and i am left to be a homemaker.  i make sure the house is relatively clean and that dinner is prepared...the rest of the day is spent in leisure...sometimes i read, go to Facebook or Fetlife and look around, blog here or exercise (a walk or bike ride).  This is the way it is until my resident paperwork comes in and allows me to work.

Anyway, this blog is not really about all that - it's about this:

Some days, SirW will say, "lie back down kitten, We can take care of Ourselves today...you rest."

This morning was one of those days, but it was so much more beautiful than just being able to sleep in...

The alarm went off and SirW rolled over and whispered to me that i could rest while He and Our son handled things themselves.  My body relaxed, but before i could drift off to sleep, i felt His fingers trace all the features of my face: my forehead, eyes, nose, cheekbones, chin, ears, neck.  i knew He was looking at me, even though my eyes were closed.  i cold feel Him cherish me and it made me feel phenomenal. 

So many people allow the daily routines to dictate not having time to cherish each other - always in a hurry to rush rush rush out the door to work, then hurry hurry hurry to eat dinner and go do do do...sometimes it's nice to slow down and take a minute to appreciate the beautiful things life has afforded Us.  From each other, to nature, to food and to Our friends.  It's the little things that seem to mean so much these days :)